“It was really, really, impossibly difficult for me to deal with losing Liam,” the singer says Louis Tomlinson had conflicted feelings about commemorating One Direction’s 15th anniversary this summer in the wake of his bandmate Liam Payne’s death. The English singer-songwriter addressed his internal struggle in a new interview with Rolling Stone U.K. , where he acknowledged that it was important to honor Payne, but noted he was still struggling with his grief. “It was really uncomfortable,