I remember he said it like a fact. Calmly — an if-then statement. To my teenage ears, it didn’t sound like a threat. Paul didn’t sound like a calculating monster saying the words to control me. He was just informing me what was likely to happen if I hung up the phone on him. He was going to kill himself. Sometimes, where once was love, there becomes a web. Sometimes, if you’ve been caught in the web long enough, it feels unclear who is the fly and who is the spider. When I was a freshman in